have been coaching st hildas for the past few days/ weeks.
they were having a 3 day camp, and decided to help out.
double sessions yesterday.
$15 thrill after,
wasnt really as excited as i thought it'll be.
pretty messed up mind to go with it.

didnt catch any sleep,
first session was TERRIBLE.
i was sleeping most of the time, nicholas doing most of the job
afternoon session was much better, caught a 2 hour nap during break, got on with coaching.

wellwell
i tihnk they've improved!
another possible occupation i'll consider as for the future.

08's finishing.
hello 09', i do not look forward to seeing you!

Sunday.
was somewhat very different. (already)
farewell for the Seah family.
Throughout sermon, my mind just went through different thoughts.
Very emotional time for everyone.
some couldnt control their feelings and it was only right that they pour out.
they're a family of strong characters and if i were in their position,
getting half the number of encouragement would mean a lot to me already.



but what really struck me was
the sudden encouragement to change,
for the better.
To be much more holy.

like many would say, they wouldnt find me as a good example of Christianity.
to add on to it, natasha has been taunting me with the "changed man" words.
how about it's my turn to prove that im more than just words.

i definitely want to be more involved in church,
making my own decisions, not being influenced on who's going, who's not.
will volunteer when needed. ( being an emcee is an exception! )
hope i'll be guided in the right path this time round.

"When you step up, God will step in."

Will miss you Pastor Steven, Aunty Gwen, Sarah, Rachel, Benedict.
I respect and see you guys as perfect examples.
all the best to you :)

is iris and i the only ones who think magnified didnt go well?

and thanks to everyone who has messaged me about how i've been doing etc;
i'm fine, it's just, i have no idea what to reply you. :/

finally got a taste of christmas in singapore(yeah how cliche, another christmas blogpost)
overnight at nats house was pretty fun.
everyone were in the festive mood.
came back
and knocked out again. wasting another day.

school starts in 5 days.
there are many things i definitely want to change.
studying methods, friends, character.
for better or for worse.
it's gonna be a big risk
but i just hope it pays off for the big Os.
oh
and hairstyle too (H)

hey tiongwei!
doubt you'll ever read this but
glad that magnified brought us slightly closer
and
though i know you're affected by some stuff,
i definitely know how you feel
and the feeling totally sucks
whatever it is
cheer up!
hope you'll get over it :)

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you out of my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I just can't find
The courage to show to let you know
I've never felt love like this before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out


But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me ? (oh yeah)
How will I know if I let you go ?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why don't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It's such a a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out


If I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know if I let you go ?

If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh
Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

figured we all have the same thoughts.swear it'll be hard.it had always been.too bad for me i always lacked courage when it comes to the occasion.i see this as a big opportunity to move on.however the scar is visible, it's sliced deep within me, in my heart. it'll never ever go away. i am very certain about it, it's been so long, the effects are still the same. i am so damn afraid i will never move on. though it seems liek i have, it's all the fake smiles and fake laughters. all exterior. in the inside, it's painful. every moment, every minute.
sometimes,
i blame you for giving me sleepless nights.for hurting me.
how about this.
it's everytime.

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I know.
I think I know.

Magnified.

It was pretty awesome!
the whole event,
everything sort of went to plan.
just that i figured i suck as an emcee. big time!
something i'll never do in the future for sure.

other than that,
the best moment was definitely midnight itself.
everyone went crazy.
their smiles lid up my face for sure.


overnight was definitely fun!
lots of rubbish, games etc haha
yeah whatever!
some pictures!

MJ and his fans.
MJ and Wonka
MJ with MR & MISS Magnified.

hi i think this is a damn cool picture by my bff hah.

i am homeeeeee!
back from all the crazy shopping/sale etc!
welcomed back by all the stress for the christmas dinner.
really very unprepared.
suddenly, i dont really look forward to it now, considering that there are so many uncertainties.
i really hope that everything will be fine!
wish me luck yay :D

YOOOOOO
im feeling so damn homesick right now.
NOT.

Shopping here is INCREDIBLE!
everytihng's so cheap
yet im holding back, trying not to spend too much on myself,
while spend more on others.

so far i've only bought 2 tees.
will be heading to the city area tomorrow.
wish me luck!


partypeople party party!
enjoy the holidays!
the season of caring and sharing peopleeeeeeeee!

hi everyone
i've made a list for christmas presents.
please do tell me whether you want to trade!

something for you guys while im away
i might not be able to blog :/


Denmark Got Talent.
Winners.

It's been mixed emotions for the past few days.
not really sure what my heart really wants to do or looking forward to.
like dilemmas after another.
my mind's probably half stuck in malaysia. thinking about hardcore shopping etc.
other half staring at my 30cm high assesment books for next year's Os.
which brings to the point,

congrats to all those who did well in N levels!
if you're satisfied, then kudos!
if not,
dont worry, i'll still die with you for Os. :/

This were the final two in Britain Got Talent
George Sampson VS Signature


honestly, george wasnt as impressive as Signature.
However, the twist is that george dances for money and would gain huge sympathy votes from the audiences.
somehow, you could feel that he was dancing straight down from his heart.
really honourable.


George Sampson




Signature

today ( 16 december )
watched twilight with the two most unexpected people hah.
Ambra Liew and Benedict Chia.
how weirdy weird weird
but overall it wasnt so bad.
the outing that is,

the movie, however, was just plain sucky
had no idea what the hell was all the hype about.

conversations with ben changed my impressions of people,
including mine as well.

talking of impressions of people.
one person certainly stood out.
loose to slut to whore.

- in 10 minutes.

yay
it is rumoured in my house that i might be owning a nitendo wii soon!
first game on the list is ROCKBAND 2.
it's like 300 bucks for the ggame.
freakomama!

i think chun yong (2nd from left) looks like toni from skins.

it's been a pretty eventful for the past few days.
eating a lot and exercising way much more.
spent lots of time with my cousins.
really fun hah
been busy with the christmas event as well
and after today's wedding,
figured that the emcee job is really scary.

i shall ration out my money for the upcoming week
spend in malaysia
yay
yay
yay


half the pictures in my cameras are gone!

gymed today
early early game tomorrow
out with cousins yayyyyyyyyy
holidays are ending
omg
so fast

went for a round of bowling with my malaysian cousins
got owned.
played pool
and i owned damnit
my second game of the year woohooooooo

if you cant find the sucker in the first half hour,
you're the sucker

Some people lead, Some people follow.

i planned my whole day so damn nicely
and
nothing went according to plan

kinda overslept for training, though training was at 1!

met the retard bunch at town
with ambra's awesome fall,
sort of lightened up the mood for me to laugh etc

now im home and im damn stressed
cos christmas is round the corner,
the event is pilling up lots of stress on me suddenly
where i suddenly feel i am damn irresponsible,
not doing my duties etc.
argh

shall stay up the night,
watch movies, watch shows.

TIME FOR QUIZ!


1) who's the person that tagged you?
Charis

2) relationship between you and him/her?
Hildians!

3) three impressions of him/her.
-Guy Crazy
-Jo Bro Freak
-LOVES TO EAT!

4) if he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
hate jonas brothers

5) what will you say to the person you like very much?
How'd You Doing?

6) characteristic i like about myself.
very happy when happy

7) characteristic i hate about myself.
very emotional when emotional.

8) For the person whom you hate, you say?
go die (yup that's all!)

9) what do people feel about you?
insane retarded egoistic asshole hah

10) your crush?
oh god too many

11)Tag 10 people (PLEASE DO IT IF YOU HAVE A BLOG)

1. Daniel
2. Natasha
3. Fared
4. Calvin
5. Daren
6. Elizabeh
7. Delon
8. Jaaziel
9. Kelly
10. Charlene

12) if 5 & 7 were together? (Delon, Daren)
SEXING MAN

13) who does 5 like? (Daren)
I DONT KNOW? HAH

14) what colour does 9 like? (Kelly)
GREEN CONFIRM

15) say something about 8 (Jaaziel)
African American!

16) who is 2? (Natasha)
MY COOLEST LAME JOKE FRIEND EVER! who kinda shrunk but still is a cool human

17) talk about 3 (Fared)
MAT. who's in RJC!

18) who is 10's best friend? (Charlene)
kelly? daryl?

19) who's the sexiest among all 10?
JAAZIEL JOB FOR THE WIN!

20) what colour does 4 like? (Calvin)
GREEN. common shit.

21) is 4 single? (Calvin)
dont think so? i dont know sorry!

22) your relationship with 1? (Daniel)
really good friends! 7 years?

23) Are 5 and 6 best friends? (Daren, Elizabeth)
i doubt so. hahaha.

24) 9's surname? (Kelly)
LOY

25) 7's nickname? (Delon)
VEGETARIAN.

26) say something to 8. (Jaaziel)
hi, like so long never talk to you hah.

27) say something to help 9. (Kelly)
there's other jobs around! :)

28) Who does 1 admire? (Daniel)
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,

29) where does 1 live? (Daniel)
loyang valley

30) Do 10 of them know who you like?
i dont like anyoneee (H)

31) say something to 6 when you see her (Elizabeth)
I (reply to your message!)

32) 10's spouse? (Charlene)
too young too small too short. oops.

Yo
lunch with alex at marina
filled with adidas runners
hoho
smelly people
went off for match against nationals womans under 21
better scoreline,
worst performance ever.
argh
hate to think about that match
where freaking emotions just got the better of me argghghhhhh

have a good week next week everyone

that unloved feeling
the caring soul

Like the party boys,
we're all falling ill now due to the insane amount of fatigue and tiredness accumaleted throughout the week.
to add fuel to fire,
i trained in the rain today,
catching a cold right now.

rain represents sadness,
my ears requested for slower songs.
and hell,
it's not good for my emotional system.

will be out with friends tomorrow
hope i recover damnit

Gosh i've got no idea what's wrong with me but hell
im in love with
"Womanizer" right now hah

"Live Your Life"
"Circus"
"Rehab"

i spent yesterday having minimal sleep, and studied!
ok no,
tuition that is. but heck i still learnt something.
kudos to lucas!

mc gathering after
charins new house IS SO DAMN BLOODY NICE.
chilled etc;

chalet after
damn funny and fun
im such a bastard in life but who cares
do what you want to do right!
awesome acting skills paid off.

dead beat right now.
thanks everyone.

funday on monday
training with jjc and shps
met up with the guys at night.

gosh the funniest and crappiest people ever
after talk was different cos of gender issues hah
how cool
saw wei qian and cheryl
HOW FUNNY I THOUGHT HAH.
yesyes and of course other humans.

busy week up ahead
imma try to start tuition,
prep for Os.

i saw my brother's HTM shirt for TP.
im really working towards my goal.